This is what I wrote recently:
Yep, I thought I’d be working on another one or two pieces of assessment. Still working on a poetry oral. To quote the TV Show Buffy, “Shoot me, stuff me, mount me”. I cannot WAIT until the holidays.
Since then? Both orals done, just had some major exams, have a lot of exams coming up, still at the “Shoot me, stuff me, mount me” stage.
Something’s been getting to me. One of my friends is a vegetarian. That fact does not bother me. Understand that, I am perfectly okay with people deciding to be vegetarian because it is their life. What bothers me is that she’s been getting moralistic about it. It bugs me for two reasons. The first is that we all respect her choice to become a vegetarian and yet she does not pay us the courtesy of respecting our decision not to (trying to convert us). Secondly, generally I find that people who get moralistic act this way because they are in the mentality that they are superior because of something (in this case, because she is a vegetarian). We’re supposed to be her friends. Yet she feels the need to feel superior to us anyway. These two things have just been bugging me because recently in group emails, she’s been getting moralistic. In addition to this, after I had swine flu (first day back at school), I got a chicken salad and she said “So you’re eating meat again?”. Okay, firstly, I ate meat when I was sick. I had soup and mince (in addition to jelly and about four litres of lemonade). Secondly, I’m allowed to eat meat regularly. Thirdly, when you are sick with something like swine flu, you eat whatever the hell you feel like and can actually stomach (and by that, I mean NOT throw up, which I did with a lot of food when I was swiney). Plus she does not consider the fact that members of the group could be anaemic or just plain low in iron or are already limited in diet!!@!!! Sorry, I’m really frustrated. I’m typing this in study and the person next to me just said “Whoa, you’re typing really fast”. So I’m trying to calm down. I’m probably going to have a party (‘cos I haven’t had a party in ages) and I don’t think I’m going to invite her. Heck, even my Mum said I shouldn’t. I don’t think she likes me anyway. I mean, I don’t think I’m really one of the members of the group she actually considers a friend. I don’t think she minds me, but otherwise. I mean, I found out she was having a party at her house and wasn’t inviting all of the group (myself included) because her “house was too small”. However, since her recent behaviour, I’m not as believing. It’s just so frustrating; friends should not be so judgemental and moralistic. I mean, they shouldn’t do that to other people, sure, but especially not to their FRIENDS!!! I don’t know, she’s just getting on my nerves. I’m trying to calm down because I’m a bottler and I’m worried that I’ve been bottling for a little too long and if this keeps going, then I’ll explode (much like when you keep shaking a soft drink bottle and then drop it on the ground – long story). Anywho, I feel a bit better now. I needed to get all that out because it really has been driving me nuts and I’m not going to tell anyone in the group because I can’t trust that:
a) they won’t tell the friend in question
b) they won’t get offended themselves because obviously they are friends with this person